my chosen profession is nursing, but i love politics. i love the system that is policy and procedure making. however, i often get consumed by this system. over the past year, health care reform has shook me. being almost completely immersed in the health care world, i have been disappointed and scared for what my future holds. i've questioned going overseas despite my lack of experience and student loans. i've questioned continuing with nursing in order to pursue a political "career."
however, my naivety and pride have struck me again. i read a blog that convicted my motives and my trust in God. even if you do not feel as affected my this bill as i, i still encourage you read it here.
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
a blog about nothing
so it hasn't been that long since i blogged last, but i needed to take a break from the never-ending cycle of homework. actually, i only have five tests, four presentations, three papers, and 1.5 clinical hours keeping me from being cindy steiger, bsn. After that, one more fairly large exam keeps me from being cindy steiger, rn. in the scope of things, that ain't too shabby.
during isp last night, we talked about contextualization. dude, i am SO excited to engage in a church planting movement that is contextualized to the culture, but SO scared of the responsibility! i was also convicted that i need to be more intentional about praying for what God has for me in the coming years. maybe i do need to move overseas now. maybe i'll end up in a place that encourages and teaches new grads well. or maybe not.
i guess i'm happy that i still have this beat inside of me that longs to be apart of the global push to tell others about Christ!
i feel as if i've done more NCLEX questions recently than spend time with Jesus. this is not okay, but "my" reality as of now.
i miss facebook. i know, pathetic. it seems as if i have more friend requests when i'm not on than when i am.
my friend has been blogging a lot about living with the things you need and examining her need to thing what she really needs. man, i suck at that. i suck at examining my life (one), weeding out things that have no significance to the Kingdom (two), and keeping those commitments (three).
welp. that's it, really. back to the in-service prep (oh joy).
during isp last night, we talked about contextualization. dude, i am SO excited to engage in a church planting movement that is contextualized to the culture, but SO scared of the responsibility! i was also convicted that i need to be more intentional about praying for what God has for me in the coming years. maybe i do need to move overseas now. maybe i'll end up in a place that encourages and teaches new grads well. or maybe not.
i guess i'm happy that i still have this beat inside of me that longs to be apart of the global push to tell others about Christ!
i feel as if i've done more NCLEX questions recently than spend time with Jesus. this is not okay, but "my" reality as of now.
i miss facebook. i know, pathetic. it seems as if i have more friend requests when i'm not on than when i am.
my friend has been blogging a lot about living with the things you need and examining her need to thing what she really needs. man, i suck at that. i suck at examining my life (one), weeding out things that have no significance to the Kingdom (two), and keeping those commitments (three).
welp. that's it, really. back to the in-service prep (oh joy).
Thursday, March 11, 2010
my cup runneth over
today was, essentially, my last day in the hospital for my preceptorship hours.
i wasn't on my unit today because i scheduled some time with the director and assistant director of surgical services. i did admit one patient while they had a "disciplinary" meeting with a staff member and i loved it! while i missed the IV, it was still amazing to be back in the swing of things.
right before the director and the assistant director clocked out for lunch, someone informed them that one of my preceptors, (the charge nurse), needing to see the director in the lounge. so we moseyed down the hall and entered the lounge full of wonder as to what the charge needed to talk about.
instead of being approached by a serious conversation, we were approached by cake and a card. it was no one's birthday and no one was having a baby. it was for me. silly and awkward nursing student, cindy. words cannot describe how blessed i was by that moment.
and then i read the card. please believe, they were speaking my love language in those moments and with their words!!!
and then the director tells me they will have a job opening in out patient, the unit i worked on, in a couple of months, i.e. by the time i graduate.
i wasn't on my unit today because i scheduled some time with the director and assistant director of surgical services. i did admit one patient while they had a "disciplinary" meeting with a staff member and i loved it! while i missed the IV, it was still amazing to be back in the swing of things.
right before the director and the assistant director clocked out for lunch, someone informed them that one of my preceptors, (the charge nurse), needing to see the director in the lounge. so we moseyed down the hall and entered the lounge full of wonder as to what the charge needed to talk about.
instead of being approached by a serious conversation, we were approached by cake and a card. it was no one's birthday and no one was having a baby. it was for me. silly and awkward nursing student, cindy. words cannot describe how blessed i was by that moment.
and then i read the card. please believe, they were speaking my love language in those moments and with their words!!!
and then the director tells me they will have a job opening in out patient, the unit i worked on, in a couple of months, i.e. by the time i graduate.
REALLY?!?!
it's unlikely that i'll stay down here, but seriously, what a blessing! to be affirmed in something that i have worked so hard for over the last four years brings unspeakable joy!
the best part: i know i could not have done ANY of it without the grace and faithfulness of the Lord. praise HIS name!
the best part: i know i could not have done ANY of it without the grace and faithfulness of the Lord. praise HIS name!
Sunday, March 7, 2010
poor in spirit
i'm listening to a sermon. the primary text is:
essentially, he says that we must realize our brokenness and poor state in light of God, realizing we can do nothing apart from Him.
i don't live like that. i want Jesus alone. i want to constantly cry out to Him to sustain me, to grow me, to stretch me in grace, to draw me to my knees in humility. dangerous? maybe. but what good am i in the kingdom if i don't cry out in dependence like this? how will others see a transformed life if God not doing the transforming?
"Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven."
essentially, he says that we must realize our brokenness and poor state in light of God, realizing we can do nothing apart from Him.
i don't live like that. i want Jesus alone. i want to constantly cry out to Him to sustain me, to grow me, to stretch me in grace, to draw me to my knees in humility. dangerous? maybe. but what good am i in the kingdom if i don't cry out in dependence like this? how will others see a transformed life if God not doing the transforming?
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
the past week
i know the week isn't over yet, but just wanted to tell y'all what's been going on:
- i successfully got 5 IVs in one day!!! while i've blown two today and the day before, it is still something to be "proud" of.
- my sister told me she might be fired. holler budget cuts. she asked me if i wanted to go overseas soon. sadly, i have 45,000 reasons keeping me here.
- i will finish my capstone hours tomorrow (PTL!)
- i started kaplan monday and feel like i'm gonna poop my pants whenever i think about taking the NCLEX
- i registered to take the board exam!!!
- i received link discussing graduation
- after a convicting sermon, i'm praying about singing in church (multiple emotions mixed in this, but any prayer/words of wisdom to be offered are appreciated!)
- i found an old song and cannot get it out of my head (Jesus Lord of Heaven)
- in the aforementioned pursuit, i discovered phil wickman.
- i've had thai food twice, always in great company.
- prayed with some awesome people at clinical
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
i am such a fool.
i just posted something on sf and the fun that i perceive it might be. but as i spent time catching up on my blogs, i found this. don't watch the videos just because and know that i don't post them with lack of care. rather, know that the Spirit of the Almighty is at work and be drawn to your knees in repentance and steadfast, eagar prayer.
i just posted something on sf and the fun that i perceive it might be. but as i spent time catching up on my blogs, i found this. don't watch the videos just because and know that i don't post them with lack of care. rather, know that the Spirit of the Almighty is at work and be drawn to your knees in repentance and steadfast, eagar prayer.
Monday, February 22, 2010
i left my heart in san francisco
my friend from nursing school told me that she might be moving to san fran once we graduate.
please believe, this made my heart oh so happy! this, of course, got me looking into sf hospitals and new grad programs. this led to me searching through the different districts and all the fun places to see and things to do. did you know there are three lakes in golden gate park?! and there is a place called strawberry hill (almost like strawberry field)?!
please believe, this made my heart oh so happy! this, of course, got me looking into sf hospitals and new grad programs. this led to me searching through the different districts and all the fun places to see and things to do. did you know there are three lakes in golden gate park?! and there is a place called strawberry hill (almost like strawberry field)?!
ok, so who's gonna take the sf/golden gate walking tour with me over spring break???? tentative dates are 3/13-3/20. please, let me know if you are interested!
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