i am such a fool.


i just posted something on sf and the fun that i perceive it might be. but as i spent time catching up on my blogs, i found this. don't watch the videos just because and know that i don't post them with lack of care. rather, know that the Spirit of the Almighty is at work and be drawn to your knees in repentance and steadfast, eagar prayer.

i left my heart in san francisco

my friend from nursing school told me that she might be moving to san fran once we graduate.

please believe, this made my heart oh so happy! this, of course, got me looking into sf hospitals and new grad programs. this led to me searching through the different districts and all the fun places to see and things to do. did you know there are three lakes in golden gate park?! and there is a place called strawberry hill (almost like strawberry field)?!

ok, so who's gonna take the sf/golden gate walking tour with me over spring break???? tentative dates are 3/13-3/20. please, let me know if you are interested!

brother john

i should read my blog subscriptions before i post a blog.

john piper is truly anointed by God to communicate truth.

dearest oswald

i used to read my utmost for His highest a lot in high school, but then it became common place. i may have tried to pick it up again while in college, but it was either too convicting or required too much discipline for me to keep on reading it.

i picked it up again after a friend kept texting me to read that day's excerpt. i was so moved/convicted by its words, that i've been reading it again.

today's excerpt read the following:

The Initiative Against Dreaming

"Arise, let us go hence." John 14:31

Dreaming about a thing in order to do it properly is right; but dreaming about it when we should be doing it is wrong. After Our Lord had said those wonderful things to His disciples, we might have expected that He would tell them to go away and meditate over them all; but Our Lord never allowed "mooning." When we are getting into contact with God in order to find out what He wants, dreaming is right; but when we are inclined to spend our time in dreaming over what we have been told to do, it is a bad thing and God's blessing is never on it. God's initiative is always in the nature of a stab against this kind of dreaming, the stab that bids us "neither sit nor stand but go."

If we are quietly waiting before God and He has said - "Come ye yourselves apart," then that is meditation before God in order to get at the line He wants; but always beware of giving over to mere dreaming when once God has spoken. Leave Him to be the source of all your dreams and joys and delights, and go out and obey what He has said. If you are in love, you do not sit down and dream about the one you love all the time, you go and do something for him; and that is what Jesus Christ expects us to do. Dreaming after God has spoken is an indication that we do not trust Him.

i was skeptical of today's reading because the title was "the initiative against dreaming." well, that seemed oh so offense to the girl who loves to get lost in dreams. but i was challenged to think differently. if i love God and truly delight in Him, then i will, nay-must trust Him to do what He has said. it's crazy that most of my issues in my relationship with God revolve around pride and a lack of trust. i want to be stripped of those things that i may worship God more fully...

new dreams

ok, i always have some new idea, but i'm SUPER excited for this one!!!

i didn't think i'd like working outpatient surgery, but i've loved it! i would love to work in a unit like that some day. one of my favorite parts of working there is interacting with the different types of doctors and nursing staff. yes, i have my favorite surgeon and i have my favorite nurse, but i can't figure out a favorite anesthesiologist.


and i think that's because i love them. i love their job and the way they assist the patients. i love that they are, essentially, licensed drug dealers. dude, what an awesome job!


and did you know that you don't have to be an md to be one?!? oh, that's right. nurses can be them too-certified registered nurse anesthetist. but how can a nurse achieve this? let me tell ya:

1. A Bachelor of Science in Nursing (BSN) or other appropriate baccalaureate degree.
2. A current license as a registered nurse.
3. At least one year of experience as a registered nurse in an acute care setting.
4. Graduation with a master’s degree from an accredited nurse anesthesia educational program. As of October 2009 there were 109 nurse anesthesia programs in the United States utilizing more than 1,900 approved clinical sites. These programs range from 24-36 months, depending upon university requirements. All programs include clinical training in university-based or large community hospitals.
5. Pass a national certification examination following graduation.

i'm almost half way there! ok, actually, i meet no requirements yet, but by june i should have 1 and 2 out of the way. then, some experience, some more schooling, and another test. bada-bing, bada-boom-CRNA here i come!


do you think i jest? oh no, my new dream is to be a CRNA!!! i'm SO excited!!!!! there are three programs in this state that offer a CRNA. one just happens to be in the bay area.

Samuel Merritt University
Program of Nurse Anesthesia
School of Nursing - Providence Pavilion
3100 Summit Street, 3rd Floor
Oakland, CA 94609

so maybe i will be applying for more jobs in the east bay.


there you have it. a new dream has been sparked. whether good or bad.

the olympics

my friend kim hosts a mean olympic party. i was so sad when i learned i missed out on it this year. while i'm excited for the 2012 summer olympic party, i cannot express my excitement for my new goal:

that's right, 2012 in london. call me crazy, but this is my new ambition! think of the ability to tell people about Jesus!!! and it be apart of something so epic! and to see LONDON!!!

look out, london-i'll see you in 2012!!!

bleh

my heart hurts again. i thought so much would change and only joy could come from charting new waters.

Jesus, remind me of your grace. Remind me of your love so that i may should others. make me steadfast and constrained to You!

"Therefore, my beloved brothers, be steadfast, immovable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, knowing that in the Lord your labor is not in vain." -1 Cor. 15:58

"Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, Rejoice. Let your reasonableness be known to everyone. The Lord is at hand; do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." Phil 4:4-7

"Grace to you and peace from God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ." Eph. 1:2

"But we are not of those who shrink back and are destroyed, but of those who have faith and preserve their souls." Heb 10:39