Monday, November 10, 2014

ten on ten: welcome to india

so it's technically the eleventh here, but eh, who cares.
i thought a ten on ten post might be a good way for y'all to see a bit of life here.
so away we go!

first off, breathing class

 breakfast of champions

 prepping to dress some wounds

 waiting at the bus stop to start my journey into delhi

 then transfering to the metro
(please note the selfie)

 my view at the registry office for three hours

 not getting ripped off by the rickshaw drivers is my fave.

busin on the way home

 our third roommate

it's pretty here sometimes.

today was pretty great.
taking two hours worth of public transportation by myself was quite the victory.
but today ends with a heavy heart.
one of the patients died tonight very suddenly.
we aren't entirely sure the cause, but it was very hard to be a part of.

sadly, this is often life here. 
seemingly preventable diseases lead to early and frequent deaths.
even more heartbreaking is that so many die without the knowledge of the King.

please take the next few moments, days, weeks to lift up the people of India with me.

linking up:
ten on ten button



Thursday, October 23, 2014

clear eyes, full heart

i feel like the last two months i've really lived up to my blog title.
well, i guess just the crazy part.
the whole "white woman" thing kinda sticks with you.

it's been a crazy two months.
and i'll recap maybe not so quickly.

my sister got married.
it was a crazy weekend full of laughter,

special moments,

 and, most importantly, dancing!

at the end of september,
 i moved out of my apartment and home
for the past three and a half years.
it was definitely a bittersweet time.

i'm back living with my parents.
who knew i'd be 28 and living at home.
{i'd prefer not to have this photo documented}

the giants made it to the world series!
i really love post-season giant's baseball.

i spent a week in socal visiting some dear friends.

after a month and a half of battling,
i finally got my visa!
i think the phrase "best day ever" might actually apply.

i've worked my last day at the VA for a while.
it's been my home away from home for the past four years.
i'm still blown away about how the Lord got me there,
but that's a story for another day.

 the giants are playing in the world series!
did i mention that?

trying to prioritize your life into two suitcases that 
weigh less than fifty pounds is proving a challenge.

i leave for india in SIX days. 
i haven't really had much time to process it all.
in all honesty, some days i feel totally 
unprepared for all that lies ahead.

the tv show friday night lights came up recently,
specifically the famous words of coach taylor:
"clear eyes, full hearts, can't lose."
i know it's completely cheesy
and completely out of context, 
but i think i have a new way of looking at this phrase.

my eyes are clearly fixed on the 
task set before me and on my prize-Christ.

my heart is full with support and affirmation 
from those around me, and full with 
the promises and love of the Lord.

i can't lose
romans 8:31, 37-39 says this:
"What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?... No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord."

a bit of a stretch, i know.
but i don't really care.
every girl needs a theme
and this is an obvious contender.
i probably won't post again until i'm in india,
and then i'll really live up to that crazy white woman thing.
so we'll see ya then!



Monday, August 11, 2014

12 days off

i love my job.
i really do.
but when they tell you that you "have" to take 12 days off,
you say yes please.
and make the most of it.
so here's how i did just that.

my coworker hooked me up with some wicked 
awesome seats for a giants game.
we even got to see where they do some of the KNBR radio shows!

went to chico with my sis
and saw some pretty skies.

we also stopped in sonoma on our way home.
wine country is the best country.

had family dinner.
i really love these people.
so so much.

threw a bridal shower with the very talented kim
for my very beautiful sister

complete with a mimosa bar,

personalized recipe box,

and homemade lemon scrub.

such a fun day!

 then my sister and i left on a jet plane... the land of dry heat and sunspurts.

arizona, i think i love you.

we went shopping for flopping hats,

took selfies by the pool,

and got gussied up for a nice dinner.

i even got to see two of my favorite people from joshua.
so grateful these friendships stand the test of time!
We headed back to the bay
and did a little mug swap prep!
i really love swappin.
and muggin.

Ellen had another shower
and it was so lovely to hang out with these awesome peeps.

all in all, it was a really great {almost} two weeks.
going back to work today has been a bit rough.
but thankfully i got by with some help from my coworkers
and their obsession with donuts.

the next time i have this kind of break,
i'll be on my way to india!
so crazy.
so awesome.
crazy awesome.




Sunday, July 20, 2014

prayer: the greater work

"prayer doesn't prepare you for the greater work;
prayer is the greater work."

my late grandmother penned that in her journal years ago.
in her later years, she would spend much of the day praying 
for lists and lists of people and ministries.
my mom must have learned the value of prayer from her
because every morning as a child, 
i remember my mom on her knees praying.
i knew that it was a sacred time.

unlike these matriarchs in my family,
i all too often trivialize prayer.
i'm all too quick to say "i'll pray for you."
and i will. a couple of times. and sometimes half heartedly.
but isn't prayer bigger than that?

i know that it is.
and i know that ministry is often futile without prayer.

as i head overseas, i'm beginning to see how crucial prayer is.
in fact, i'm craving time with Jesus.
and i've been praying for a good time of preparation, a ready heart to serve, and for the Lord the pave the way before me.

but i have a really big favor:
will you pray with and for me?
south asia is a very spiritual place and i know that i can't go and serve there without people here holding the rope through prayer.
and as important as financial support, 
i need prayer support even more.

if you are able to commit to praying with and for me, 
will you let me know?
comment below, 
send me a facebook message, 
or email me at

prayer is a big deal.
it is the greater work



Wednesday, July 9, 2014

fundraising: a change of heart

it comes with so many negative connotations.
it oozes of car washes, rummage sales, and chocolate candy.

growing up, i often felt fundraising was a burden.
i would tentatively ask for monetary support.

but i have to honest.
i haven't been able to do much "going"
in the last couple of years,
so i gave.
and i prayed.
and i watched God move in amazing ways.

i've heard outreach refered to as a well:
there are those who go down into the well
and there are those who hold the rope.
both jobs equally important.
both jobs much  needed.

i'd like to give you the oppourtunity to hold the rope for me.
moreover, i'd like to give you the chance to join in on God's mission for His people in a unique way.

i'm not writing this to make you feel guilty
or coerce you to do something that you don't want to.
rather, my goal is to reshape how we think about giving.
it is so fullfilling to give!

so will you partner with me?
i need to raise a total of $8,000 for my ten months abroad.
this means i'll be living on $800 a month
and that i'll need to raise about $500 a week until i leave.

please, spend some time praying about what
giving will look like for you.
and please remember:
any size gift can do wonders for kingdom work.

and if you decide you are able to give,
please check out my fundraising site:

for those of you who have already given so sacrificially,
thank you.
for those of you who will give with gladness,
thank you.
for those of you who will partner with me in prayer,
thank you.

again, i thank you for your love and support
as i begin this new stage of life!




Friday, June 6, 2014


howdy y'all!
last time, i told y'all about my exciting move.
this time, i'd like to give you some more detail.

at the end of october, i'll be heading to north india. 
as of now, i'll be serving for about 10 months.
while there, i'll be functioning as a nurse 
and working with an amazing organization.

our shared goal: 
share Jesus by being His hands and feet 
to a broken and weary people.
they are all about sharing love and grace 
to the broken and hurting.
it's about living out the gospel amongst hopeless. 

guys, this is why i became a nurse.
to be a physical conduit of who Christ is and all that He's about. 
it's unreal that this life dream is becoming reality.
so many times i've lost hope that this dream would actually happen.
but through the years, God has been prepping me for this moment
and i am abundantly grateful that He is faithful.

there is a lot to get done before i go:
moving, visa getting, insurance buying,
and the list goes on.
i also need to raise some funds.
i don't have the final numbers quite yet, 
but would be so grateful if you would start thinking 
and praying about giving.

and i will need some serious prayer support.
i know i will face challenges daily, 
but i also know that the Lord answers prayers.
so please consider being a part of my prayer team.

i'd like to extend a huge thank you for all of the 
love and support i've already received!
i have been overwhelmed with the amount of texts, calls, and hugs.
my words of affirmation tank is overflowing!
thank you for already joining me on this crazy journey
and for continuing to walk with me.



Tuesday, May 27, 2014

dreams really do come true

at high school summer camp as an incoming freshman, 
i made a commitment to serve the Lord in a global context.
 i didn't know how or when, 
but i knew that was my purpose.

and then i ended up at CBU to pursue nursing, 
but i didn't really want to be there.
during second semester, 
God rocked my understanding of the gospel 
and what "missions" was all about. 
not only that, but i went overseas for the first time.

Rwanda 2006

as a newly proclaimed gloabl studies minor, 
i applied to go overseas with my school again the following year. 
a friend asked me where i wanted to serve. 
i said, "any where but india, really." 
if you don't think the Lord has a sense of humor, 
i'm here to prove that He does. 
that summer, i served in india for three weeks. 
God shook me and opened my eyes in a new way. 
i was broken and in love with this people. 

India 2008
 my heart was so drawn to india,
i went back for two months the following summer.
i knew even more deeply that i had to go back.

India 2009

and i now i get to.
the Lord has made it possible for me to serve Him 
amongst a broken and beautiful people of india.

guys, dreams really do come true 
when your dreams are lined up with God's plans.

i am humbled to have this opportunity.
i am overwhelmed looking back and seeing how God works.
i'm even more overwhelmed when i look forward 
and think how He will continue to work. 

details are still being worked out,
like when i'm going
and for how long. 
(so any coworkers reading this, please, 
mums the word for the time being.) 

 but the coming months will be a busy 
season of preparation and decision making.
i appreciate and thank you for your prayers,
especially for wisdom and a smooth transition.
  and don't worry, 
i'll be updating here with more info 
throughout this process.


*an overwhelmed*