Friday, August 31, 2012

quick update

howdy there, blog world.
it's been awhile.

i guess i don't have much to say these days.
so here's a quick update about what life has held the last few weeks:

i celebrated two years of being a full time nurse!
i mean seriously, whoa.
God is SO good to have provided this job
and to have reaffirmed time and time again that 
He has created me to be nurse.
so grateful.

i got to go on a day date with my beautiful coworker.
be jealous.
she's pretty awesome.

went to my last giants game of the season.
yea, i may be crying right now.
thankfully, we won and i got to eat a corndog.
my college roommate and i are planning 
to run a half marathon in 2013.
we're aiming for the spring, but, deanna,
i haven't run in 2 weeks. we may have to reassess.

i went to wedding 2 of 4 for 2012.
i've known this special lady for eight years
and it was such an honor to celebrate her special day!
also loved hanging out with these lovely ladies!
bff's....or LONGER

my good friend, kim is away.
i got to watch her puppies one night and it was a blast.

i also had to take over her hospitality duties at church.
thankfully, i had some fantastic help.
church planters in training are the best.

i've gone on a couple hikes with this lovely lady.
kindred spirits just scratch the surface.
grateful that the Lord has brought her to the bay!

that about covers it.
coming up:
-2 weeks living in san fran
-wedding 3 of 4
-my friend kimber comes to visit
-a trip to riverside.

man, life is good.

Saturday, August 11, 2012


tonight is one of those nights.
i get them every so often.
sadly haven't had one in i don't know how long.

tonight, i'm itching to be overseas.
as in, i almost bought a one way ticket and emailed my friends overseas to see who would take me kinda night.

the kind of night where my body is restless,
my spirit aches,
my mind won't stop
and my heart burns.

i feel so discouraged that i'm still here,
no where closer to being overseas than i was two years ago.

i work in a comfortable hospital,
i live a comfortable life.

and it makes me sick.

i long for simplicity,
i long to feel purpose again,
i long to live amongst a people that value intentionality.

i know that i need to practice those things here
but man, is it hard!
materialism and entertainment abound.

i just want it to be simple. 
Jesus, help me to remember to live simply!!

with all of this talk of sudan in my circle of friends,
i've been woken up to how much my life isn't much different than those around me.
in fact, as i've talked with my coworkers about hope4sudan, they seem taken aback, "oh, you're a christian?"


i have failed.
i have failed to exalt and glorify the One whom my soul loves.

i'm so easily distracted.
for this i repent and plead with the Lord to bind my wondering heart to Him.

these next few days and weeks will not be easy.
i know the enemy has done much to keep me distracted, but i pray that the Lord will sustain me as i remember and dwell on my first Love.

prone to wonder, Lord i feel it
prone to leave the God i love.
here's my heart, Lord, take and seal it
seal it for Thy courts above