feelin like moses

no, not because i've got a cool staff, a beard, or the influence to lead millions of people out of exile. go back a few chapters and you've got what i'm talkin about.

moses always had a passion for God's people and that's probably why he killed the egyptian who was mistreating the hebrew slaves when he was still in egypt. but he ran and lived in a place of complacency and waiting until God was ready to use Him. (exodus 2:11-25)

yesterday in class we watched a movie that had kay warren in it. y'all know how i feel about the warrens. however, i feel as if i need to retract those statements. yes, i disagree with much of their theology, but their actions to have people live their lives in a way pleasing to the Lord is truly excellent. if you don't know, kay warren has a divine obsession with helping people with AIDS (in africa specifically) and making people aware of this devistating pandemic. while i watched the video i cried, well almost. i felt ashamed of crying because i'm not doing anything right now to assist in this situation. i had forgotten my passion for this people amongst school and "life" concerns. i praise God that He has reminded me of this desire to specifically serve this people group. while watching that movie, i fought with God. i was screaming in my head like a child, "LET ME GO! let me leave this place and go NOW! i'm sick of this life where i am sucked into materialism and want to be THERE, physically utilizing everything i can to bring healing in all demontions to people!" God gentley reminded me of moses. "wait, don't be rash. My plans are better." through the day, i struggled with how to react to that video, how to react to suffering everywhere. "I WANT TO GO!" i screamed. God patiently answered back "not yet. not now."

i have confidence that God will use my life in some capacity to help those with HIV/AIDS and those suffering physically in general. but while i learn to wait, i must rest in the famous words of isaiah:

Have you not known? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He does not faint or grow weary;
his understanding is unsearchable.
He gives power to the faint,
and to him who has no might he increases strength.
Even youths shall faint and be weary,
and young men shall fall exhausted;
but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength;
they shall mount up with wings like eagles;
they shall run and not be weary;
they shall walk and not faint.

Isa 40:28-31