i should

i should really be doing homework right now. and i will do it, i just have some stuff to get out. most of you know that my current obsession lies with the movie hairspray. i mean, i really enjoy musicals. i love the combination of good acting, singing, and of course, dancing. so what's better than a moving that's not only all of these, but about these. then, make the main character a fat girl beating the odds. i love it. i mean, from the first minute i knew i was going to thoroughly enjoy that movie. i've said it before and i'll say it again, but i wish my life was tracie's, (ok, take a few exceptions-like throwing Jesus into the mix. but does that make it a joel olsten gospel....oh gosh, that's another blog...). i mean, what fat girl doesn't want to be recognized by the "world" that has ignored her for so long. maybe not even recognition in terms of fame, but by the guy. you know.

i know i should be content in my singleness, but as many single people have over the past week, i have been examining where i am and who i am. i mean, most days i am okay with being single, but today, i so desire something more-selfish? most likely. i used to think that i would be able to be single the rest of my life, but i don't know. i guess i think about marriage and a life long ministry partner more than i thought, (or should).

i had a teacher tell me once that contentment in the christian walk is a bad thing. i am content with my relationship with God. i am not content with the amount of time i spend in the Word or the amount of time i spend memorizing the Word. moreover, i am not content that i have such a hard time trusting the only One that has only been faithful. 1 Thes. 5:23-24 says "Now may the God of peace himself sanctify you completely, and may your whole spirit and soul and body be kept blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ. He who calls you is faithful; he will surely do it." Lord, may i have this confidence in You. may i be kept blameless in my thoughts and speech as you sanctify me for and in Your purpose and glorious plan.