five and counting...

five of my friends are now engaged. really? so crazy. congrats to my newly engaged friend, amber! if anyone else is planning on getting engaged, can i get some prep please? i think my roommate needs me to celebrate somewhere besides our living room ;)

life is beautiful

did i steal that title? man, thievery seems to be my new gifting; i should work on that. in other news... today was my first day of clinical in OB. what does this mean? BABIES! LOTS O' BABIES!!! my anxiety level was quite high this morning as i headed to kaiser at 0615. i walked away from a three hour pre-conference with a cool badge thinking that this would be the only positive to the day. then, i found out i was assigned to the neaotanal intensive care unit. cindy translation=sick and super fragile babies, LOTS of them!! any anxiety level that may have been diminshed because of the hip new badge had just risen-times two.

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i came back from lunch and my nurse beckoned for me to come with her. i scurried towards her, put on foot coverings, (similar to those worn at the taj ;)), and a head covering, (not so similar to those worn in indian ;)), and went down to the OR. I GOT TO SEE A C-SECTION! so crazy!! a baby was born and i got to see it!!! weird, please believe. i mean, i know people always say that it's beautiful, but i just thought they were lyers. today, confirmed something quite different. birth is quite amazing, something that can only be created by an amazing God and that i live in a world of denial.

******

there's nothing else to write, so i'll just leave you with a visual.

stollen, so uh, sorry.

i definitely stole this video from darin mcwatters. lo siento my friend, but it was too funny not too pass on.


click me

it's beginning to look a lot...

...like christmas?



well, songs aren't playing in stores yet, but decorations are in pretty much every store


and i saw egg nog at ralph's today.

now, if only the temperature would drop a couple ten degrees, then we'd be in business! otherwise....

i forget to pray

so, if you haven't figured it out, i love india. i try to pray for them, but i i fail. (this is in no way to be "look how holy i am.") but i pray for the lost. i pray for the people of india to come to know Christ and the glory of God. while i think this is good and pleasing to the Lord, i think it also grieves Him because i forget about His children who are suffering so greatly in India. read the current struggle.it has been going for months, at least, in the news.

i had a conversation with some folks about what it means to be persecuted. i don't know what that means anymore. i don't think i have ANY idea what it means to suffer or to be persecuted. i pray that i will learn to suffer with grace and love, with integrity and perseverance, with self-control and peace. i pray that i will learn to pray and weep for my brothers and sisters in india who suffer in ways that i can't seem to comprehend.

"Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse them. Rejoice with those who rejoice, weep with those who weep. Live in harmony with one another. Do not be haughty, but associate with the lowly. Never be wise in your own sight. Repay no one evil for evil, but give thought to do what is honorable in the sight of all. If possible, so far as it depends on you, live peaceably with all. Beloved, never avenge yourselves, but leave to the wrath of God, for it is written, "Vengeance is mine, I will repay, says the Lord." To the contrary, "if your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him something to drink; for by so doing you will heap burning coals on his head." Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good."

Romans 12:9-12

milestones

i'm writing a paper on developmental milestones. it sucks, mostly because of the time that it is taking to write.



i had a personal milestone. i took a suck test today. i definitely thought i failed post-test. welp, i just got my test grade. please believe that i definately got an a-, in nursing terms! this is a HUGE deal, well, for me. i'm not trying to brag by any stretch of the imagination! this is one of my best grades ever in nursing in terms of a test, so i needed to share the absolute splendor!

thanks. uh....back to the paper...?

my hometown...well, almost.

my hometown made the bbc news!!! well, almost. i guess there's been lost of talked about the hayward fault line. here's the. it's kinda creepy actually. there's a picture showing all of the different faults in the bay area and there are a lot. but anyway, hayward and san mateo, (my town), share a bridge. during thanksgiving break, i will be crossing that bridge to go visit the hayward city hall to see that stinkin' cool fault line that was featured in the bbc article.


in other almost-hometown news, there was another bomb blast in india. this time it was imphal (in the north-east). not too much info on the attacks yet. thirteen are dead. they say this so causually in the news. i don't think they realize the gravity of the deaths. thriteen will see the full weight of the glory of God carried out in His wrath-->dead.

turtle in a half shell

i used to watch teenage mutant ninja turles a lot growing up. the glory of over-grown reptiles saving new york city and eating pizza-it was a girl's dream come true! my favorite movie was the first one. i could never handle the female lead changing, so i had to stick with the original.

anyway, it was on tv and i caught a majority of it. please believe that this movie is WAY funnier as an adult. almost like animaniacs or freakaziod.






what shows have you had a great appreciation of since you've "grown up?" do tell!

dirty secret

i have this obsession. i think i may have confessed this previously on my blog and most of you know it all ready, but i was recently reminded of this obsession and man oh man! so excited i became!!



"the names bond, james bond." bada NA NAH nana na!



those words so beautifully spoken and the musically theme so wonderfully played strike a deep cord in me. from sean connery to daniel craig, all of twenty one of these films are simply amazing. i am thoroughly looking forward to the release of the newest in the saga Quantum of Solace, in theaters november 14. i plan on going by myself or with friends, so let me know if you want to go! some people get mad at me for liking thee movies because i am a self-proclaimed neo-feminist, however, i think they missed the "neo" part and the fact that i'm cindy and i constantly redefining things. dude, common. so here's a little snippit of why i love the world of james bond:



the swanky look....



...and the silvery cars.


you get drinking,

...wicked chase scenes,
and absolute predictability.



but really, what gets me coming back EVERY time, the guns.

me and my roommate

my roommate is pretty much amazing. she celebrated her birthday this weekend, so i decided i should blog about our good times together. we have great conversations. here's a sampling:

• -i don't understand the logic at this school? expansion of the bookstore and new grass when we need to expand the caf and have more parking. what's the deal?
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• -so gay marriage is allowed in some areas of our state, but i don't get it. what do they say at the end? "i now pronounce you wife and wife?" i dunno.
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• -she apologizes for using my massive textbook to kill a spider while i explain i would have done the same things. then i do the same thing a few weeks later.
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• -"what the heck are thunder beads!?" (please don't ask...)
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• -you know the "what other skills can you contribute to your team?" question on isp application? we should totally put french braiding!

yep. good times.

post 100

this is slightly unworthy to be my 100th blog post.


it's 12:04 am. my roommate is asleep and i just finished a homework assignment. i hard a rustle outside, but assumed it to be nothing. then, KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK!! i literally jumped on the couch. i didn't move. all i could think about was the man(s) that we got the email about via lancermail-you know. the creepers that have been around campus as of late. the noise continued outside my door for a few moments and then steps slowly faded.


now that i am more relaxed, i feel like i might pee my pants and i REALLY don't want to get up to lock the door and turn out the lights. i am SUCH a wimp!

thanks mr. piper

well, the desiring God blog is finally up and running again and i have been thoroughly enjoying them. today, (well, i read it today), there was a post about biblical womanhood. i was skeptical as always. was someone else going to tell me to wear a skirt and be content to do nothing but make babies? nope. not his point at all. the "article" can be found here.

i'm somewhat nervous about writing the following-just to honest. but uh, here it goes. i hate being singe most days, especially as a woman seeking after God. it seems as if i'm not "righteous enough" or "good enough" to be in a relationship. but how wonderful it was to be reminded that being single has it purpose and that purpose is NOT necessarily to prepare me for a relationship with "the man of my dreams." i pray that i can learn to be content with this. i pray that i can learn to be content with God-maybe even, be passionately obsessed with God so that He would somehow be revealed through me.

really?

sorry for the mis-link; well, i guess, no link. please try again.

did some one really have this free time on their hands?????

four weddings and counting

to date, there are four of my friends are getting married this summer...


...and it's only october! i am thrilled for my friends! never forget that fact as i continue the whiny blog that is to follow, ( i gave you fair warning).

i don't know if i'm going to be invited to three of the weddings, but have already been invited to one in wisconsin. well, this kinda messes up my plans for the summer. i really wanted to get this job at hume lake as a nurse itnernship (i can't remember if i've blogged about that previously or not). i've missed so many of my friend's weddings already, (at least four), do i want to continue the trend? am i being selfish to pursue this position? i'm really having a hard time with this. i really hate the fact that i missed my friends' weddings previously. it's like a missed a part of their lives and i can't relate to them as well anymore. i don't want to keep doing that, but i also want to be the "best nurse i can be." man, i really hate making choices.

so there's that unoraganized blog, filled with the confused thoughts of a crazy white girl. i know i need to pray more through this "delema," i just seem to forget that God has a decision for me even in this seemingly silly circumstance.

my new favorite snack

i like to eat. i know, it's hard to tell, but i like food. i've been trying to cut back on the sweets for medical purposes, but have been craving sweets nonetheless. as i walked through my small, rose garden kitchen, i pondered what kind of sweet study snack i could indulge on. and then it hit me!!


peanut butter and graham crackers! it's sounds kinda funny at first, but as soon as the carbohydrate laced with protein hit my mouth, i was hooked! the best part about this savory snack is that i got my ingredients at winco. oh yes, cheep and delectable is how i roll!

oh, the exciting life that i lead!

the last two weekends have been truly incredible! please let me set the stage. my roommate and i are both required to be hard-core studiers due to the nature of our majors. she is taking three labs and working her butt off to get into the nursing program and i am in the nursing program wondering why in the world i committed my life to such a crazy thing! last friday, my roommate cleaned the bathroom as i caught up on the presidential debate that i had missed. she proceeded to get a life and watch a movie with a friend, but after the re-run of the debate, i studied. saturday night was much of the latter for both of us.

this weekend we had three tests between the two of us behind us and it was glorious!! friday night, we decided to celebrate!!! we went to our friends house off campus, she made us dinner, and we watched ellen degeneres's stand up comedy sketch. i mean, the truth in that hour of humor is parrelled by a few. after that, i almost fell asleep on the floor since i had only gotten about ten hours of sleep over the past 48 hours, (okay, more than some, but not enough in the relative world of sleep). our friend brought out the jell-o, (you know, the good kind with the maderine oranges in it), and we proceeded to finish the bowl right there on the living room floor. an hour and a power nap later, my roommate and i headed home for a good nights sleep.

tonight, after an amazing winco run, i started to study for the next stream of tests. for a break, i cleaned our apartment. now our apartment smells like scrubbing bubbles and 409.

i know you are so glad that you have had this glimpse into my ever so exciting life.

please mr. piper!

John Piper and the Desiring God crew did not blog today. withdrawals? oh yes! it's almost worse than coffee!




and yes. i have a real big test tomorrow. i can't decide if it's going to be real easy or real hard. i don't even know how many questions are on the test. oh man. back to the grind stone?