blog manic

i know i've been blogging a lot. maybe i'm some sort of blog addict. i dunno.


i've had this weird compulsion. every day i seemed overwhelmed with memories of indian culture and indian friends and i burst out with "can't i go to india?" i had pre-warned friends of such outbursts and they are good to remind me, "no, not yet. you need to be here." i really hate hearing this and never really understood the value of its meaning until i recent sermon series.


those outburst have been so emotionally driven and while i pray my desire to serve God globally longer term is motivated by Him and making His name known, i know that i have tons to learn. i need to be here to learn about God. simply, (or not so simply), to learn about the wonderfully complex and mighty God that i have the privileged to commune with through the blood of Christ. Philippains 3:10 and 11 have had new light shed on them:

"I want to know Christ and the power of his resurrection and the fellowship of sharing in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, and so, somehow, to attain to the resurrection from the dead."

once i somehow dive into the depths of this inconceivably infinite God, maybe i will be able to face such sufferings with His joy.