Tuesday, October 7, 2008

four weddings and counting

to date, there are four of my friends are getting married this summer...


...and it's only october! i am thrilled for my friends! never forget that fact as i continue the whiny blog that is to follow, ( i gave you fair warning).

i don't know if i'm going to be invited to three of the weddings, but have already been invited to one in wisconsin. well, this kinda messes up my plans for the summer. i really wanted to get this job at hume lake as a nurse itnernship (i can't remember if i've blogged about that previously or not). i've missed so many of my friend's weddings already, (at least four), do i want to continue the trend? am i being selfish to pursue this position? i'm really having a hard time with this. i really hate the fact that i missed my friends' weddings previously. it's like a missed a part of their lives and i can't relate to them as well anymore. i don't want to keep doing that, but i also want to be the "best nurse i can be." man, i really hate making choices.

so there's that unoraganized blog, filled with the confused thoughts of a crazy white girl. i know i need to pray more through this "delema," i just seem to forget that God has a decision for me even in this seemingly silly circumstance.

3 comments:

deanna said...

This is my thing...I think what matters more is if you are there for their marriage. While it may seem like you cannot relate to them as well as prior to their wedding, I don't think it's because you missed the wedding. I think it's because things have to change because of the new relationship that's begun. You probably already know all this, but writing it down helped me clarify what I was thinking. P.S. Don't feel bad for wanting to do life the way you were called to it...anyone who takes offense to you not showing up to their wedding may just need time to work through that. Do your thing girl!

deanna said...

You know...I kinda like that I feel like we are the only ones who read each others blogs...its pretty fabulous, plus it's kinda like spending time with you. Awesome!

deanna said...

I'm free after about 7:30 if you're free...whenever works for you should work for me!