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i want to know
i want to understand
i want to see
God why can't i understand what's going on?

i want to see past this
i want to be better than this
i want to rise above this
but God, why can't i get past it?

i want to be humble
i want to scream
i want to fall on my face and cry
oh God, why is my heart so selfish?

i want them to love me
i want to just to get me
i want them to know i how much i care
but God, i thought i had?

"I lift up my eyes to the hills.
From where does my help come?
My help comes from the LORD,
who made heaven and earth.

He will not let your foot be moved;
he who keeps you will not slumber.
Behold, he who keeps Israel
will neither slumber nor sleep.

The LORD is your keeper;
the LORD is your shade on your right hand.
The sun shall not strike you by day,
nor the moon by night.

The LORD will keep you from all evil;
he will keep your life.
The LORD will keep
your going out and your coming in
from this time forth and forevermore."

help me to know You

help me to live in Your understanding

help me to see You because my eyes are fixed on You.